Putting on fake smile is hard :(

I hate myself :(i am just a guy who heart has broken into piece and putting on fake smile.i dont want you to feel guilty for hurting me,i am never gonna blame it on you. you can treat me as invisible guy.i know you got many suitors but i dont mind i wouldnt give up on you. i will give you my blessing if you found your true love 1 day.But if you get hurt just remember i will always be there for you.ending my life is not going to help so i wouldnt do anything to hurt myself dont worry or feel guilty